Saturday, July 20, 2013
Well
Not really mad, 'is just my blog. I won't say it bothers me that people I look up to feel appropriate ***. I just know they are taunting me @ it and that nothing else is happening.
ok
I told my dad if I'm too old to wave in the parade.. I will be a spinning machine. In my dream, it was so grotesque, so slimy and shapely, thought a seal from the pole was gonna come in and get me then picuted up like a little rubbery totally large snail, size of like the smallest dog or smaller. like it was alive and talked.
Do you wanna know
about something really stupid? Ellen wants you to want to be ugly, flat out.. Well, maybe not really, but she asks us to be charming in an annoying way. I hope you don't know my friend and like people I know over me since the n word thing. What if we said you were rude? Ruined your life?? Not the question someone at risk would ask, but I guess I follow your ways and see you don't "do" anything, like you're waiting. I mean, I talk.
So, I guess I'll forget about the taunting attitude about thinking of a stimulated Ginny. You know, I would get in trouble for going through it to her. It might make her feel it but not necessarily. People are mean to me.. because my mom is small but not like bony with drooping skin, like lots. I mean, just looks good but is small, didn't eat enough as a girl, didn't have enough food on top of that. She was very fat at 1 point as a toddler. Reminds me of my brother. I did say to Ellen once online my mom was like you, fat just at age 1 or 2. She did have a more flat open face, made me feel that this Vietnamese was in my room at the mental clin'c because of that. WHY. It did affect me and my favorite picture with my hair dyed. I didn't try to look like her.. I mean, that was not okay. I know Koreans are attractive who are thin. Too bad I didn't save some picture I ran into.
So, why are we giving Ginny inappropriate feelings she doesn't deserve to go? Didn't I just say how much do you spend time on this?
So, I guess I'll forget about the taunting attitude about thinking of a stimulated Ginny. You know, I would get in trouble for going through it to her. It might make her feel it but not necessarily. People are mean to me.. because my mom is small but not like bony with drooping skin, like lots. I mean, just looks good but is small, didn't eat enough as a girl, didn't have enough food on top of that. She was very fat at 1 point as a toddler. Reminds me of my brother. I did say to Ellen once online my mom was like you, fat just at age 1 or 2. She did have a more flat open face, made me feel that this Vietnamese was in my room at the mental clin'c because of that. WHY. It did affect me and my favorite picture with my hair dyed. I didn't try to look like her.. I mean, that was not okay. I know Koreans are attractive who are thin. Too bad I didn't save some picture I ran into.
So, why are we giving Ginny inappropriate feelings she doesn't deserve to go? Didn't I just say how much do you spend time on this?
Tantrums and Dream
Is Ellen having a tantrum, thinking she'll stop the tingly feelings by making people feel them more? I'd like to remind you about before in the "experiment" that no one would ever do those things, save for online *** or messing around, the 1 thing. I do stand by, but I still would like to comment. I don't have a real issue, but I mean, there are some things done just in spite I was thinking.. just as a punishment. I don't think it's something I can do, otherwise maybe Ellen does it, too. It feels more like "buckering someone up." Not me. I find it rather rude and crass. I posted something on my blog, something short, comlpaining about it. Then, I started to notice it more, like "Ellen can't hold it" feeling. I will not live like this, something stupid like that.
O, I remember my dream, was influenced by some of the insults I got. For some reason there was a traintrack by my house and they just grew. Someone was with me, like my mom but this person wasn't her, and we were sampling some food.. I had a thin crisp sugary cup filled with sugary fluff, and it was good.
Just wondering, I don't want anyone to make fun of me like I'm imperfect. That just seems rather crass, as well.
Also, I don't get why people keep acting like an old friend who doesn't wanna talk to me, like if you have anything to say you're a party pooper. Why'd I even have to say this again now..
It seems Ginny does go crazy if you do something that doesn't seem aligned in "the way.."
I keep getting the idea Ellen is spilling these things. I found a way to stop complaining @ her. She thinks she didn't really do anything. I just know that she doesn't completely like what she does. I think you're gonna make fun of me, like she's supposed to direct her attention to weird people who don't have anything to say, just there for stupid***.
Also, Ellen, don't get mad at me and say that must be something I do like my mom cuz it's not.. I'm not gonna grumble like my dad.. I don't know what you are. Wait, why did I say Ellen?
Well, I look up to Ginny, I'm not gonna reduce her "achievement" to being a *** object as opposed to not at all. She can experience appropriate feelings. I feel that what it was was things I don't make myself do, not that that matters.
Why would Ellen be mean to me all the time, like she has a bug? Yes, I believe the people in the New Orleans suburbs can be mean, illogical, stuck up. Even more is the people from New Orleans itself. They are underhandedly stuck up and in a daze.
Ellen isn't really all that, has to "be the 1" to make up some insult to the world. I just got the idea she hurt my mom because I want to be cool. Ginny was looking at me, too, BAH. What is your problem? Shut up. You don't explain shit in your thoughts. Stop throwing yourself in my face. Stop jabbering nothing at all. Also, it's because of something that doesn't matter. Watcha doin' to my mom, Ellen? You can't hold your wee wee, or what Ginny, even worse, 2 problems because of dumb Tim Burton. HEY STOP. You're gonna pay. What was that? So, you're just not there for me?
You know that picture of Ellen as a baby, such an attractive person from her Jew blood. I was thinking she said she was like pretty much laid down before you, like the gesture that is nice except it's like you're living your life and she comes in and has to be able to topple it, like she's getting into you.. I wasn't attractive FROM HAVING Chinese blood but just because I'm a normal person..
I just want to say that I never saw people put people in tingly feelings as a punishment on display. That is highly insulting. It was done with bad feelings.. because of jealousy, wanting, and incompetence. I just feel it "is" the relationship just to be mean to me because I said what others did to me was mean. I told Ginny that about unfriending me. So, what, that's also your excuse of giving her ***? That's very crass and improper. It's the kind of thing that doesn't happen for no reason..
O no, mad at Ellen again. Always at Ginny, too. What is the giving her feelings like she's a tween or something in junior high? Just to punish me! What, is that what leaks out.. I know no one approves of it. I'm not actually mad but the fact it seems to be done with an attitude of pleasure to me. I don't know if she needs that, but I don't. Maybe, I'm just better than her, or possibly that's really "what" she does because she might have the most unaccounted for last name. I think she regrets ever doing anything for anyone because she met me.
See, you're just spoiling her for fun and to mess around inappropriately with me.
Ellen, I don't care about mean people my age. I heard another sound that sounds like 1 of you. It made my face not feel as soft.. I think it was just in my ears. Can you GET OUTTA THE WAY. Ginny is a weirdo, wants to get me at home when I have to practice to "punish" me for chosing a voice that's like sorta hardy like a boy, like a soft whistle, like a low flute. In my dream, I even had a large long thing like a bassoon.
O, I remember my dream, was influenced by some of the insults I got. For some reason there was a traintrack by my house and they just grew. Someone was with me, like my mom but this person wasn't her, and we were sampling some food.. I had a thin crisp sugary cup filled with sugary fluff, and it was good.
Just wondering, I don't want anyone to make fun of me like I'm imperfect. That just seems rather crass, as well.
Also, I don't get why people keep acting like an old friend who doesn't wanna talk to me, like if you have anything to say you're a party pooper. Why'd I even have to say this again now..
It seems Ginny does go crazy if you do something that doesn't seem aligned in "the way.."
I keep getting the idea Ellen is spilling these things. I found a way to stop complaining @ her. She thinks she didn't really do anything. I just know that she doesn't completely like what she does. I think you're gonna make fun of me, like she's supposed to direct her attention to weird people who don't have anything to say, just there for stupid***.
Also, Ellen, don't get mad at me and say that must be something I do like my mom cuz it's not.. I'm not gonna grumble like my dad.. I don't know what you are. Wait, why did I say Ellen?
Well, I look up to Ginny, I'm not gonna reduce her "achievement" to being a *** object as opposed to not at all. She can experience appropriate feelings. I feel that what it was was things I don't make myself do, not that that matters.
Why would Ellen be mean to me all the time, like she has a bug? Yes, I believe the people in the New Orleans suburbs can be mean, illogical, stuck up. Even more is the people from New Orleans itself. They are underhandedly stuck up and in a daze.
Ellen isn't really all that, has to "be the 1" to make up some insult to the world. I just got the idea she hurt my mom because I want to be cool. Ginny was looking at me, too, BAH. What is your problem? Shut up. You don't explain shit in your thoughts. Stop throwing yourself in my face. Stop jabbering nothing at all. Also, it's because of something that doesn't matter. Watcha doin' to my mom, Ellen? You can't hold your wee wee, or what Ginny, even worse, 2 problems because of dumb Tim Burton. HEY STOP. You're gonna pay. What was that? So, you're just not there for me?
You know that picture of Ellen as a baby, such an attractive person from her Jew blood. I was thinking she said she was like pretty much laid down before you, like the gesture that is nice except it's like you're living your life and she comes in and has to be able to topple it, like she's getting into you.. I wasn't attractive FROM HAVING Chinese blood but just because I'm a normal person..
I just want to say that I never saw people put people in tingly feelings as a punishment on display. That is highly insulting. It was done with bad feelings.. because of jealousy, wanting, and incompetence. I just feel it "is" the relationship just to be mean to me because I said what others did to me was mean. I told Ginny that about unfriending me. So, what, that's also your excuse of giving her ***? That's very crass and improper. It's the kind of thing that doesn't happen for no reason..
O no, mad at Ellen again. Always at Ginny, too. What is the giving her feelings like she's a tween or something in junior high? Just to punish me! What, is that what leaks out.. I know no one approves of it. I'm not actually mad but the fact it seems to be done with an attitude of pleasure to me. I don't know if she needs that, but I don't. Maybe, I'm just better than her, or possibly that's really "what" she does because she might have the most unaccounted for last name. I think she regrets ever doing anything for anyone because she met me.
See, you're just spoiling her for fun and to mess around inappropriately with me.
Ellen, I don't care about mean people my age. I heard another sound that sounds like 1 of you. It made my face not feel as soft.. I think it was just in my ears. Can you GET OUTTA THE WAY. Ginny is a weirdo, wants to get me at home when I have to practice to "punish" me for chosing a voice that's like sorta hardy like a boy, like a soft whistle, like a low flute. In my dream, I even had a large long thing like a bassoon.
Problema
Why are you anviling into the privacy of my own room in my own family home wanting me to be stupid and unattractive like people think that people live with silly rules, like what did I do .. oh I was upset I thought of Ellen DeGeneres stimulating my teacher and wanted the idea to stop, like most anyone, so I posted @ it. You have no right to do anything of the sort to anyone and so not to me. I am more an adult than you and you do what I say. Something funny like my clothes? Well, I have money issues.
Shopping
Guess I'm going shopping somewhere. They sell nice mix and match outfits, bound to be 1 for me!
So
Not sure who else ran into this, but if you only think of 1 thing then you only think of 1 thing.
What's wrong?
Why did I get this message? Who's trying to do everything that hurts me? Is it a secret message, like from my dad? EW, get him away.. It might be because of Ellen. I'm not going to let her get away with this. Or wait, my dad did that? Why's he always bad to me? I don't wanna even touch that man.
What was that?
A smug no? Get out of my life. I just got the idea I wasn't important and no one would do anything perfectly, for me.
Stale
So, why does Ellen try to get back at every point I make with something she's doing anyway, looking up to people like her mom, how retarded, can't take anything, I mean that's something my gramma believes in. I thought hey stop thinking about silly tingly feelings.
My Favorite Person
Always there for you, Ellen DeGeneres. I dunno, there is a threat of her retiring but not by her she's not said so on her show..after I posted that remark like on my blog or possibly to her on Twitter.
Okay, guys..
I just finished practicing my singing. I can sing the high notes to "The Phantom of the Opera." I need a 5th song just in case.
Also, I think Ginny can teach after acclimating to her new schedule. I should ask precisely what times I may come and sing with|for|from her..
Also, I think Ginny can teach after acclimating to her new schedule. I should ask precisely what times I may come and sing with|for|from her..
So I've been
working on my "The Feelings Book Journal" by American Girl, only @ $10, another pretty 1 without as much of just quizzes for also the same amount. I was hoping it would keep me out of trouble with people who are worth it. I also have my journal and Astro Girl magazine, I guess it goes on shelves every 8-10 weeks, no subscription, no Nook. I also put yarn on my books. There's the planner and regular journal from CVS for $10.
Generations
We were laughing in the movie that like you can have a 1950 dad and you'll be in the same program as cool people like Britney Spears and people like my friend with a dad who's younger don't got that.
Growing to Hate Me
People are being mean to me just because Johnny Depp made them overly nice. I told you not to do that.
Rats!
Why am I getting this pattern of messages? No one will leave me alone. I'm afraid it may be a trick to affect me and then something else will improve.
Friday, July 19, 2013
My Day
I was too tired in the bus to journal, tried to listen to stuff w/o headphones. I slept on a chair in the mall for like an hour and then on the floor they tolld me to get up when they were done cleaning, 1st in line.. then in the theater .. woke up when it was time but went out and got a very large Strawberry Lemonade Icee as part of a combo for the same price insteada soda.. and nachos, 2 extra things of cheese in the end. I had to count out $7 of coins. No more cash.
My favorite thing about “Heads Up!” is that it films you while you play. This is me, brilliantly giving clues to Lauren Graham.
link
Cool
Wow, that girl really likes Ellen. I don't think she'd mind that I was Chinese, though.. just I mean nothing really sparked me with her, like maybe I get along with people from places like L.A., New Orleans, Florida, Atlanta.
link
Cool
Wow, that girl really likes Ellen. I don't think she'd mind that I was Chinese, though.. just I mean nothing really sparked me with her, like maybe I get along with people from places like L.A., New Orleans, Florida, Atlanta.
Getting Ready to Go Out on a Bus
So, Tim Burton won't admit he's not for the new "Alice in Wonderland?"
What about the 1st 1? "You can learn a lot of things from the flowers, for especially in the month of June, there's a welcome happiness of flowers, all in a golden afternoon."
What about the 1st 1? "You can learn a lot of things from the flowers, for especially in the month of June, there's a welcome happiness of flowers, all in a golden afternoon."
Mad
My mom is playing around like she understands modern life.. I like what she does, though.
Like, she thinks someone who's nice to me is uncool. Why all the hate for but feeling okay around my dad, like I feel okay when I'm with her and excited with my dad
Like, she thinks someone who's nice to me is uncool. Why all the hate for but feeling okay around my dad, like I feel okay when I'm with her and excited with my dad
Mad
I was gonna get ready to go..now I don't feel so happy. My brother wouldn't stop annoying me and thinks he's got something on me. Go dizzy yourself.
Annoyed
So, who got my brother to tell me what Ellen DeGeneres and Ginny says. Get that mutt outta my life. (Not literally..)
He was in his room when I got out. I just don't like seeing him. He is indeed not me and the opposite and more different racially than others. Watch the next sibling turn into a murderer.
He said that Ginny says like Ellen even if I'm right they do a thing where they don't care and are still mean because of the n word thing, like I would ever mean anything bad. You all are dumb. No one cares if you ***.
He was in his room when I got out. I just don't like seeing him. He is indeed not me and the opposite and more different racially than others. Watch the next sibling turn into a murderer.
He said that Ginny says like Ellen even if I'm right they do a thing where they don't care and are still mean because of the n word thing, like I would ever mean anything bad. You all are dumb. No one cares if you ***.
What's yo' problem?
Maybe, I'll get your kid kicked out.. what a lie, you cannot even prove something if I did it, and I told the counselor something and he didn't react in any way, in a way.
May as well ***
It seems obvious Orlando won't take this Ginny shit, that she kicked me outta seeing her site online. That's like banning an IP address and very selfish but to her just some fact. All I can say is maybe she's really offing Facebook. I don't really agree with that for anyone unless maybe you're really old. Hm.
Problema
No one gives a shit about me seeing the disciplinarian. Ginny, I told you you were stupid. Then again, you just want a bumpy ride, why not the same exact hurt? The hurt that would do to you. Aw, don't get mad. It is stupid to send me to see someone.
Problema
I had mentioned I talked to a cool guy before @ problems with Ginny. He was nice and let me tell he thought the problem was just the rowdy boys outsdie. Orlando is gay. I'm serious. Always rubbing in their shit.
Mad
Why should I even talk to my parents. They'll just keep testing the other side. I'm sure I'm independent and well-liked, saw my parents for who they were, didn't hurt my brother. I know they'd even be testy to me to be quiet and still while he was born.. Well, I said something and then left. Then, it was all about whiny brother.
Shallow
What if my brother from my dad's side decided to stop getting deep into things, just needing to be able to survive like a person, have an education. I don't really think other people are all that attractive. I see the world as it is! WTF doesn't seem to get reality with me.
What do you think about people passing through
New Orleans?
I like the earlier generations, like not just the 30s and 40s but the 00s.
I like the earlier generations, like not just the 30s and 40s but the 00s.
Really Upset
So, people born in 1958 or whatever also do side with kids with extra OLD parents.. I don't want a bumpy ride getting in trouble with Ginny and like not being able to participate in Facebook with others.
Flo rda
Here's a fun 1. Someone .. an actress named Peyton List born April 1998 .. is from somewhere out there in Florida .. is it by Gainesville|Tampa .. moved to New York .. where .. at age 4. I have relatives there. I see her picture, and she looks like she wants to throw up. Guess she's in L.A.. You know, I don't feel bad since moving to the New Orleans area. However, Ellen DeGeneres is from there. I just moved back to Orlando.
Stop
My dad is not an emotional person. He's just some other person. I've always tried to in a way get him to "talk." It seems my mom thinks America is just a joke.
Just Woke Up
I remember my dream, again, I was back in the choir loft of Slidell.. Before, some people were going home on spacecrafts. So, my teacher put her hand on the top link of my arm, I was next to Charlotte Church and my friend.
Then, I remember like not being able to do anything else.. like I was being carried into the church pews, the priest going around giving people turns to do things, almost got to me but still immobile. Some noises ended up making me get up..
I guess it was interesting, if you think of "what happened" as a tool.. a tool to make a dream. I was sprawling on my bed and got up but mayb e want to lik down atgain. xp The church thing seemed like a party.
I guess I should try to make a slush today, even if I just put water in it? I had these 2 little chicken pot pies and a lean cuisine of Sesame chicken and noodles. I can cook the tohe
Then, I remember like not being able to do anything else.. like I was being carried into the church pews, the priest going around giving people turns to do things, almost got to me but still immobile. Some noises ended up making me get up..
I guess it was interesting, if you think of "what happened" as a tool.. a tool to make a dream. I was sprawling on my bed and got up but mayb e want to lik down atgain. xp The church thing seemed like a party.
I guess I should try to make a slush today, even if I just put water in it? I had these 2 little chicken pot pies and a lean cuisine of Sesame chicken and noodles. I can cook the tohe
SHUT UP
My brother is being mean, turned on the light showing the food when he came out for more shit I would not acknowledge him as like me, no one will stop. Wow, Ellen, you think I was shit to you. You are the 1 who is mean because of the N word thing, you even admit it.
Wow, and you do it on TV.
Wow, and you do it on TV.
STOP
STOP MAKING FUN OF ME FOR HAVING ATTRACTIVE PARENTS I FEEL PEOPLE WANNA **** ME, LIKE UGLY RETARDED ASIANS
Problema
I have a feeling Ellen just talks back because she's mad she's not from Florida, the only place more dreamy than New Orleans, what a dawg.
MAD
I will not sit here for the shit of Nell Burton literally answering to something @ a dad "just" from Pennsylvania..whatever the Hell that means..and then assimilating me with the uglier Chinese by default because my dad's not a social guy like a partier.
THIS IS NOT A JOKE
I do not feel too old to be Tinkerbell..in the Disney parade. What, Snow White looks too old? She looks older than me..
Foood
I got 2 Lean Cuisine, Sweet & Sour Chicken with Noodles I think, then with rice Sesame Chicken, which is Chinese food I likealot, and 2 chicken pot pies.
O MAH GOD
What if I like something in a good way but honestly try to better myself into an ideal? You're just worried @ me being Chinese and people hurting me.
Old Florida
You know, old-fashe uned Florida was much more modern than it is today and same with New Orleans xp
So
I just deserved to get really mad and it's loading to YouTube. I started thinking after my YouTube for Ellen DeGeneres.. and then blew up even more
Do you think it's ***y to tell someone not to be what is accepted as good just because you gave them attention and they didn't do *** for anyone and they're younger
I will not deal with an animalistic vision of Ellen barking like people I've known to a degree.. of how she's not from Florida a modern culture and is chancing "it in" L.A.? Do you really do that? She will not even answer. What did I do to you? I am so sor ry if you are JEALOUS
Do you think it's ***y to tell someone not to be what is accepted as good just because you gave them attention and they didn't do *** for anyone and they're younger
I will not deal with an animalistic vision of Ellen barking like people I've known to a degree.. of how she's not from Florida a modern culture and is chancing "it in" L.A.? Do you really do that? She will not even answer. What did I do to you? I am so sor ry if you are JEALOUS
Daint y
There are people gay enough to fart around and say I can't be Muslim because they make fun of me for being a dainty Chinese..
A Good Day @ McD's
There was a girl with long white hair, kinda small boned, talked to her for like 2 minutes @ smoothies and slushes, she got 2 shakes, probably like mostly vanilla.. a kind of German boy stood guard watching us talk. She responded, right away. Sometimes, I acted like I was talking to him. A guy who worked there was trying to say what smoothies they had, but I never found them.
So
I started saying hi to everyone. Also, there's a guy who knows me I saw in his car. He's a nice guy with a very long, rectangle head.. You know something funny was I thought what now Ginny is Tinkerbell? My therapist, who's a hefty person with a little Italian from Miami with a shade of blonde hair, like light brown, said she likes Tinkerbell, she made her kid that for Halloween.. and even brought in cups and did something to the light switch.
Problema
Stop acting like you're better after I made some huge point. I will not be the servent to you being all thick and happy like a 1960 person, no matter how old my dad is or isn't. Does it look like I do that? You know, there's something about liking more than 1 thing. I do what I do.
What was I gonna say?
What was I gonna say?
The Address Book
It is a spotted cat cover, light brown. I do like white and gray better.. I still got it, didn't I??
I passed around a Valencia notebook before, the teacher didn't tell me not to, like during class. She even was mad when I stayed after class to pass it around. It's like we were there because she is a rare feeling person. If you accepted me racially, I would be, too. My dad? I dunno, I think he's stuck in a mud hole. Ellen, I don't care if I said that, you are not.. being nice to say I have to explain it. It's already self-explanatory. It's funny. He knows it. It gives me a rise. We don't need to say no I don't hate so and so.
Ever seen a cute, short girl, like my friend with white hair.. well, I wasn't big big. Think it's healthy to tell me I'm bad because my pretty hair is dark? Sometimes, it's the thing you don't want for some.
I passed around a Valencia notebook before, the teacher didn't tell me not to, like during class. She even was mad when I stayed after class to pass it around. It's like we were there because she is a rare feeling person. If you accepted me racially, I would be, too. My dad? I dunno, I think he's stuck in a mud hole. Ellen, I don't care if I said that, you are not.. being nice to say I have to explain it. It's already self-explanatory. It's funny. He knows it. It gives me a rise. We don't need to say no I don't hate so and so.
Ever seen a cute, short girl, like my friend with white hair.. well, I wasn't big big. Think it's healthy to tell me I'm bad because my pretty hair is dark? Sometimes, it's the thing you don't want for some.
Problema
I'm sure that you are supposed to like get what you need. Some people believe the opposite in these things, but you can't just blast out on me and use this as a cover, all the time, and say we have no relationship, like I wanted to hurt you in my need. I won't take a life of bullshit that stimulates you to get white skin.
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Another Hurt
You already all act like I'm better, and then Tim Burton comes and you say I was selfish.
I like older people, stop GODDAMN MAKING FUN OF THAT FACT OF LIFE. I don't act weird around them or don't like to. You think that this world is just for you. Well, you're gonna get people you're mean to to fight back. My race was disgraced before yours ever was.
I like older people, stop GODDAMN MAKING FUN OF THAT FACT OF LIFE. I don't act weird around them or don't like to. You think that this world is just for you. Well, you're gonna get people you're mean to to fight back. My race was disgraced before yours ever was.
Problema
I heard a noise again and it affected my eyes, like maybe they were nothing. I don't care "what" you did for my brother, I didn't do it, and I'm not gonna be shit in some shit way you connected it. I know something happened to them, though. Please don't tell me my eyes aren't good enough for you, just making up mean things because you're against the world in some level. Why do you think that's okay with someone like me? You go do that to yo mama? Who's shitting this? What'd you do to my eyes, stop bothering ME! You care that I'm not God and that my eyes are never affected by anything and I'm not alive and changing? You go live in a barn!
Well, the rest of my face just flushed, so I've got something going.. Oh no, there's another constant noise. Wonder what that might be. Ha. I got some people on the street to say they were younger than their parents, and they're not gay. You don't seem to got shit for them. Or, I know that the shit thought their parents aren't born in 1957, 8, 9, .. will pass through your mind each time.
Well, the rest of my face just flushed, so I've got something going.. Oh no, there's another constant noise. Wonder what that might be. Ha. I got some people on the street to say they were younger than their parents, and they're not gay. You don't seem to got shit for them. Or, I know that the shit thought their parents aren't born in 1957, 8, 9, .. will pass through your mind each time.
I know what you did.
You said I was my relatives, all those brat kids, I can sit here and count'em all. Found 1 older I only e-mailed with. Oh yes, and an in-law who never talks to me but talks to the "pretty" relative aunt.
Problema
Hey, stop giving me special rules, like someone else is better than me all the time. They don't think that when I'm up alone. I see other people of non-Caucasian races do what they decide.
I hate this place.
I wanna live here. The problem is the poor people acting like they're whiter, the blacks, and you know all mean complaining about their job to be a strict good girl. All the time, everyone. I know some of us want out, but I know you come here and you do weird things. I just don't see how it's done.
Another Annoying Thing
I got the feeling Ginny turned off to other people, and I got the idea that I did it and before that Ginny shouldn't exist because for me I should never meet anymore attractive people like me.
@ CVS
I saw this nail polish that was in a tube and it was like purple, but even when I took it out I could see it like glowing in the dark but it was light. So, it was like purple and blue or something.
Speaking of seeing colors, why do people act like I'm moody? I just wasn't comfortable as a kid. I wanted to be a proper European girl not put down for having dark|black hair, in a proper dress, doing proper things a lady does except when I'm at gymnastics, plus not to be mean to in ballet. Also, what about a lazy cook for a mom who doesn't need to eat much and a supposedly poorer dad.
Speaking of seeing colors, why do people act like I'm moody? I just wasn't comfortable as a kid. I wanted to be a proper European girl not put down for having dark|black hair, in a proper dress, doing proper things a lady does except when I'm at gymnastics, plus not to be mean to in ballet. Also, what about a lazy cook for a mom who doesn't need to eat much and a supposedly poorer dad.
Not Mean to Me
So, someone who admires men born around 1950 or maybe 1945 even will always be nice to kids like me.
Verdict
You old people should not make people born 1957-1961 more special because it's just more special than kids with older parents who are human like anyone, like Americans are European. They always say, "No"
Stupid Being Forward
Yes, I think about being younger than older people, and as a kid said I was tired of being the oldest because it seemed to mean I was flawed and I didn't like my family only
Problema
Everyone has always said I was a good person. Why is my dad and mom acting like I did something just for the fun of it? Why can't I live in this house in peace!
Question
I don't know what this means, but is my dad even comfortable around people who are a different age
So
If you embarrass a student, you should be sorry you did it.
Also, I think my dad doesn't like me because he's born in 1950. He "likes" kids born before or with older parents than him to a degree.
Flawed Adult Figures
I didn't do anything wrong, like with Ginny stupidly kicking me off Facebook. It might be because she's from California, not sure if maybe the Pennsylvania and maybe other blood made her that way. People from California, sometimes Florida, are mean, like Johnny Depp .. Tim Burton! I respect them for their morals but not for their grumpiness. I say it because other people do.
Also, I think my dad doesn't like me because he's born in 1950. He "likes" kids born before or with older parents than him to a degree.
Flawed Adult Figures
I didn't do anything wrong, like with Ginny stupidly kicking me off Facebook. It might be because she's from California, not sure if maybe the Pennsylvania and maybe other blood made her that way. People from California, sometimes Florida, are mean, like Johnny Depp .. Tim Burton! I respect them for their morals but not for their grumpiness. I say it because other people do.
Do you wanna get my secret?
I'm gonna invite people to a party.. if I get famous I can fly them over to it, guess for Saturday night and Sunday morning.. 1st, I need people other than Barb and Joni..
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I did get more money for movies, just have to buy the ticket 1st, maybe no dessert, and what about a snack.. don't know if I care for what they have that's affordable.
^Who cares^
You know, no one cares @ Johnny Depp, feeling attacked by kids thinking he's cool in a strict way, basically.. let's see what happens to his "real" manners. I must admit yes some people know my brother has long hair because of him, like a bit below his shoulders. He didn't used to part it in the middle. I don't know what he is, but he is less like me than most people. I try to be happy and white, and he thinks he's gonna win in another way for some reason. I think my dad thinks I should say "what" I like so he can provide what I want to others and leave me a "bargain."
I'm still disturbed why my parents were being weird, no movie money.. just because I slept through Disney auditions. It's quite taxing, but I see I was really "there" for the kids and maybe why they kept throwing food at me.
I'm still disturbed why my parents were being weird, no movie money.. just because I slept through Disney auditions. It's quite taxing, but I see I was really "there" for the kids and maybe why they kept throwing food at me.
Something Funny
My parents wondered why I spent their money.. I got a magazine and my arm sweated on it.. I got a little address book, but it was $6. It's very good. I just asked why my dad didn't give me movie money. My mom tells me not to ask him for money. Most parents do their kids's chores and pay for their stuff. That's what I found out in New Orleans. You know, serve them their meals.. and not act like you should waste your time on nothing..
I just said wait Dad pays for my movie money.. and my mom is like no I give him the money.. which I don't think she does. I didn't just demand it. I would have had to appropriate my money.
All I got was 2 large slushes @ McD's for $2 something each. I used their money to get a slushie at a gas station which hurt my stomach awhile walking and I had to use the bathroom. I told you what else I got. I also got 2 $1 nail polishes. Not something you need to talk @ right on, but it's like a purplish feel, dark red and an a bit glittery like dark hot pink. I was inspired by my deep voice.
I just said wait Dad pays for my movie money.. and my mom is like no I give him the money.. which I don't think she does. I didn't just demand it. I would have had to appropriate my money.
All I got was 2 large slushes @ McD's for $2 something each. I used their money to get a slushie at a gas station which hurt my stomach awhile walking and I had to use the bathroom. I told you what else I got. I also got 2 $1 nail polishes. Not something you need to talk @ right on, but it's like a purplish feel, dark red and an a bit glittery like dark hot pink. I was inspired by my deep voice.
Muddled
So, I liked growing up in a real place like New Orleans..not sure how that hits. I am from a modern, normal place. But it's so special. I'm not scared of anything in life. I am concerned.
What People Do and Don't Do
Did you know Generation XY always checks to see what they're really doing insteada no Mommy I'm special, I'm younger, I don't have to be respectful about generations .. and then no on mentions that tiny, eentsy weensy detail. They are so flippant, anyone care to handle that, really?
Still, does it hurt when someone gets attention..no..just if you don't get a part in a play. Age of parents? I dunno, I've seen it both ways. I think the goal would be to have a young mom and a dad that's not too old. Otherwise, I'm sorry, but I think people born after 1961 are crappy and even just after 1960.
Still, does it hurt when someone gets attention..no..just if you don't get a part in a play. Age of parents? I dunno, I've seen it both ways. I think the goal would be to have a young mom and a dad that's not too old. Otherwise, I'm sorry, but I think people born after 1961 are crappy and even just after 1960.
So
Why does everyone tell me they got tested more in life than me and that I'm just crap to think I'm something, as well?
To Clarify
I was supposed to be peppy at an audition today at Disney World. Instead.. I slept 7 hours 2 days in a row then missed 1 day, slept 20 hours today, feel pretty good, wanna walk to eat. I'm not auditioning to be a dancer but a waver|dancer in the parade, Tinkerbell, if not then an Alice, who all do different things. Snow White trots with the dwarves. I wouldn't mind that too much. I'd make a good role of it.
Passing
Sorry @ Talia. I looked at her Twitter the day she passed away. I had just woken up. They called Ellen and she's been online only making posts on Twitter about her. She is sad, and I am scared because I live here and I feel that I'm not really even good enough for Talia, in a way, socially.
I am very sorry about this. I wish I could have met her. I would be willing to play with her, but I don't think I'm well-liked, and we could try to prolong her life. I am so sorry she passed away, she was just a little girl.
If you don't know, she is a girl who I believe has a Spanish dad or maybe Mongoloid? and she was small and thin and had cancer. She was very smiley all the time, something I would not appear to be, maybe. She was such a good girl, I cannot believe the horror of what happens in this world. Just a few days ago, I said we need to concentrate on traffic deaths.
I am so sorry for Talia, and I hope her soul is pure and happy in Heaven while she awaits the coming of the Lord and everyone on that day we all enter into Heaven, or Purgatory. I don't know about Purgatory. I think she is in the middle of Heaven and a transient state while she waits for the other people in the world to ascend. Some people might not like people and still be Saints for their pains and pray in Heaven with the Lord all the time..
God bless the spirit arisen to Heaven of Talia! My sympathy and whatever else is appropriate. I am so sad for her death. Being an Orlando citizen, I know that people are very rude, actually, but in a way they are very giving socially, everything here is a smile, any wish you make with your heart.
God bless Talia in Heaven.
I guess I will end this post here, hope I didn't confuse anyone with my religious beliefs or wishes.
I am very sorry about this. I wish I could have met her. I would be willing to play with her, but I don't think I'm well-liked, and we could try to prolong her life. I am so sorry she passed away, she was just a little girl.
If you don't know, she is a girl who I believe has a Spanish dad or maybe Mongoloid? and she was small and thin and had cancer. She was very smiley all the time, something I would not appear to be, maybe. She was such a good girl, I cannot believe the horror of what happens in this world. Just a few days ago, I said we need to concentrate on traffic deaths.
I am so sorry for Talia, and I hope her soul is pure and happy in Heaven while she awaits the coming of the Lord and everyone on that day we all enter into Heaven, or Purgatory. I don't know about Purgatory. I think she is in the middle of Heaven and a transient state while she waits for the other people in the world to ascend. Some people might not like people and still be Saints for their pains and pray in Heaven with the Lord all the time..
God bless the spirit arisen to Heaven of Talia! My sympathy and whatever else is appropriate. I am so sad for her death. Being an Orlando citizen, I know that people are very rude, actually, but in a way they are very giving socially, everything here is a smile, any wish you make with your heart.
God bless Talia in Heaven.
I guess I will end this post here, hope I didn't confuse anyone with my religious beliefs or wishes.
So, would you say..
..Ginny is there, for you? I can't take singing right now because of her acclimating to her new schedule. I asked if it'd be until the summer. Also, she teaches privately, wait that's what I wait for. She teaches things at 1 time, as well. She said she can't add new students right now.. Where else.. also teaches voiceover at an acting school. She was pretty contained or self-happy about dialects, like I'd have to go to her classes, but that's when Disney auditions always are, and that's my #1.
Making up for Things
I don't really enjoy it. Like, Pennsylvania might be cozier, but you know I don't really believe that to be very true. All I can say is it might be more European, the old shops, the new shops, the way it seems like the old world, like you have a blessed, clean life.
How It Goes
As far as only being close to people around Pennsylvania, supposedly it's safe enough but not like New York + New Jersey..
Dream
I had a pretty long dream I was out camping and in the end kept whining to my mom and sometimes dad who looked younger and more thin worn like my brother.. like this girl from Orlando at Lakeside, "I wanna go home.." It was complicated, always worrying @ some animal that might hurt me, etc.
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Tweet
The tears on the sides of my eyes, the thick skin, made it blurry and I blinked and thought I saw Talia moving.
Also, my left wrist has hurt the same for like weeks, I think from the past at college in the disability van..
Also, my left wrist has hurt the same for like weeks, I think from the past at college in the disability van..
Tweet
Ellen, I can always wake up for you..
I was in bed and saw Talia's head in my fan. I was thinking of you carrying me because I was scared
I was in bed and saw Talia's head in my fan. I was thinking of you carrying me because I was scared
Upset
How will I happily get in the parade if my mom says I have to take medicine or I can't live with them? She's going back to Indonesia, for a year she says..
Mad Again
So, I got up. My mom is sick and perverted. I am not a man and I am not her, by any means.
Upset
It's not being Pennsylvanian that bothers me but the fact that I'm just sad about missing Ginny..what about Facebook
What made me feel good was when I thinking at the Halloween @ New Orleans that my mom and brother didn't go in the Haunted Mansion and my dad and I did, that's like the real thing, something real, like it takes me off my feet, making a Haunted Mansion @ Jazzland. Not sure what that is for them..
What made me feel good was when I thinking at the Halloween @ New Orleans that my mom and brother didn't go in the Haunted Mansion and my dad and I did, that's like the real thing, something real, like it takes me off my feet, making a Haunted Mansion @ Jazzland. Not sure what that is for them..
Mad
I'm losing bonds, at this group, I was not happy at all when I came in. My mom even wanted me up but I need to sleep.
I got really mad, thought that Ginny person thought I was chasing her, like clinging to her, like she's the European 1 who deserves all the pleasure. Ya'll stop telling me "what" you think I am, I see "what" I am compared to you.
I got really mad, thought that Ginny person thought I was chasing her, like clinging to her, like she's the European 1 who deserves all the pleasure. Ya'll stop telling me "what" you think I am, I see "what" I am compared to you.
So
Ginny doesn't care for my fam and therefore not for me, well if you weren't stupid you'd know that since age 3 you never do that. People in the same family are all very different.
So
Is Ellen coming to Orlando for the girl who died who had cancer and was on her show more than 1 thing?
I'm very interested.
What is wrong with your daughter? I don't have a mom from Pennsylvania. :( I know it's a huge problem, but I fear you forget I was accepted.
O Boy
My 1st message.
So, Ginny's daughter already is too dazed at being perfect and is no longer considered a person, may she rest in peace of the living world!
So, Ginny's daughter already is too dazed at being perfect and is no longer considered a person, may she rest in peace of the living world!
So
Tim. What happened to the agreement. Everyone has someone for a reason? Well, I made my say loud and clear don't wait for no one to come after me before you stop literally ruining things..
Problema
Ellen, gotta say it, but you can be a waste of time. I still like you as much, but I was just being funny, not sure what to say @ that. I mean, I know New Orleanians are nice.
So
Big day tomorrow, need to put together a resume, waiting for my nails to dry, might dry and style my hair and take a pic..
You wanna know a problem I have?
When I try to be attractive and nice and taken aback, like a propa English lady, my dad wouldn't nor others approve, I don't deserve to be shit. That's the go'al.
He doesn't get no.
People don't call me nigger to be safe. I saw a picture of him and figured that what I worry @ is crap but not if someone else was the 1 who did it.
Looking @ an Old Blog
Ellen would say CHRISTINA should rub in how she's "black." I'd rub in saying what is nice to black people.
So
Looking at her again, trying to shovel Floridians away because they know they come from other places. Go back too far, and no one will be here.
I must interject
Chloe was quite mean when I saw her, like Helena Bonham Carter. I am a shy, sweet, smart, pretty girl, everyone says. Thanks a lot Tim Burton you chicken now no one says that. xp
Do you ever get really annoyed
at people born @ 1980 or possibly 1975, the whole teenage pop group of the 1990s?
Preferences
You said it was ^what^ you got, not what your hair color really is, and mine wasn't black at birth.
You know what makes me amazing of all peoples and
everyone jealous, told at birth to bow down to me as more European because other people are, as well, without a problem.
May I also ask?
Are we on the same page. Yes, a girl from New Orleans at a Disney audition thought that small noses because of Asians was in. I only know that Asians wanna look white.
Stupid
Wow, Ginny is in another planet, glad I'll stop taking lessons from her, will go back again when I can. Also, I can't see her posts on Facebook. She doesn't do it as much, now. Maybe, that's another fun factor.
Mad
People keep like mimicking their thought of how they think I am just so they don't feel stupid. Don't send me to shit. Don't lie, too. If something is wrong, you should tell me and I'll probably listen.
Mad
Look, leave me alone. I want you to stop teasing me for getting mad. My dad seemed to in his mind threaten me that he won't leave me alone, even if I moved, I'd feel hurt just because of his stupid dispostion on the n word thing and various inappropriate secretive social situations that happened in my life, no brain.
So
Not to embarrass anyone, but I can't help you've stuck me on the message that you're all jealous your kids aren't like me and in the end you don't have some thing I have.
Thanks
Ginny.
I just realized I looked good when I did gymnastics but then I looked worse when my brother was born and I started ballet. So much I had to quit. I did move then.
I just realized I looked good when I did gymnastics but then I looked worse when my brother was born and I started ballet. So much I had to quit. I did move then.
Remember this. :|
Thinking of a daughter. You ever go into a situation and end up in the sewer even though you were perfectly nice and alert and attentive?
I'm so happy to be
safe at home with my blog and the internet. Key is never threaten anyone, and use the word *beep* instead if it's illegal.
If you weren't a dummy
You'd have gotten me outta those busywork Catholic schools because now I can't read and listen to remember and comprehend or figure out whilst.
Liar
Ginny thinks I had a breakdown. If you weren't a dummy, you'd've realized that people are all being mean to me and shouldn't be and think it will make them have good feelings sometimes some of them.
Mad
I felt like the teacher was like off in space, like I couldn't connect. That's probably another reason for me to be punished.
Promoting Bad Grades
He only told me to leave because he decided also that I should be punished. No busy work, luckily.. I find that move rather sarcastic, whatever it is..
Anyway
Jose was gonna let me go back soon, but nothing happened and he changed his mind without reason. I did miss a meeting when the teacher wasn't there so I could sleep. I had to come in and turn in my Weight Training homework late, 1 day.
My Grades
"Jose" was concerned @ my grades. If the kids are mean, I can't do it. I'm there to have fun.
Problema
I couldn't even go through the Weight Training class feeling like no one's paying attention to me, tired me out..were mean to me, too, so Ginny yea everyone is always mean to me it seems sometimes..they didn't kick me, but they were mean and I did almost get injured to death. I had even hurt my ankle at Mary Poppins. I do these things in public.
Please don't
get close to me for disciplinary action. I decided not to do that stuff anymore, but if someone provoked me again, I might have to if they get too close. They really have, though, and I know why. The way the whole class laughed. Never admitting outwardly they did it to annoy me specifically, a horrid class, but no attention seekers, luckily, you know what I'm sayin'? All the reason to get in a fight..not a good thing, better figure something out Ginny.
Excuse
I thought it was an adult class. They were so mean to me. I wasn't mean, I was very nice to other people. I just felt mad when Ginny's tone changed to annoy me. I also blame the Weight Training class, guess I almost died.
Crazy "Parenting" and Discipline
I forget what I was gonna say..yes I get mad and do stuff, but I didn't hurt anyone, and people do that kinda thing, I'm sure..wouldn't let me leave class if I felt mad, hm.
She's insane.
She's looking at me like she knows I went into the class not expecting anything but to be left alone. Why would I feel comfortable around her?
Period.
You are mean to me. You are bad. You have secret ways of communicating to me, like this. So what if I got mad, doesn't mean I can't go to classes..
"What do you have to say?"
So, Ginny really was mean to me in class a lot. It was in an underhanded way, but I like the teacher and that's why I took the class. I wasn't mean to her. It just made me mad. Sometimes, I'd hit my pens on my folder, told the disciplinarian for some reason. I don't recall how it affected those kids who were mean to me sometimes. I was never mean to anyone. They just kept trying to make me mad. My mom did that, and I went to Lakeside for the 1st time.
Something to Talk @?
Well, that's the problems I've been having and mentioning.
Helena Bonham Carter is nice and seems like a public figure. I mean, she does something but then she's agreeable when people actually get up and do something, you know? Isn't that a bit schizophrenic? Maybe, she didn't want kids, I dunno, not a nice thing to say, but something @ her kids seems to be difficult. Haha, I said didn't want not shouldn't have had them. What's wrong with Billy. He's a dork. I am only concerned. I've made other people dorks in my mind's eye, people I greatly admire. You just need to stop snapping at every problem I have. I mean, I also don't feel I'm always here to explain every which way something makes sense when I can't do that all the time but hopefully my posts will become more interesting.
Do you - understand - the words - that are coming outta my mouth.
Helena Bonham Carter is nice and seems like a public figure. I mean, she does something but then she's agreeable when people actually get up and do something, you know? Isn't that a bit schizophrenic? Maybe, she didn't want kids, I dunno, not a nice thing to say, but something @ her kids seems to be difficult. Haha, I said didn't want not shouldn't have had them. What's wrong with Billy. He's a dork. I am only concerned. I've made other people dorks in my mind's eye, people I greatly admire. You just need to stop snapping at every problem I have. I mean, I also don't feel I'm always here to explain every which way something makes sense when I can't do that all the time but hopefully my posts will become more interesting.
Do you - understand - the words - that are coming outta my mouth.
There's Mo're
So, Tim Burton popped up again getting me kicked outta a class with a teacher I really like a lot. Ellen DeGeneres didn't solve the problem, neither, apparently, thinking of my new heavy influence from her, worries me in a woman.
Also, you can't be mean to me just to say someone else is good. Tim Burton seems to not be able to stop it. Maybe, he's washed away. Sorry if I made a bad 1st impression, but I was polite, not that that matters to anyone.
Also, you can't be mean to me just to say someone else is good. Tim Burton seems to not be able to stop it. Maybe, he's washed away. Sorry if I made a bad 1st impression, but I was polite, not that that matters to anyone.
Was that just the world in a box?
I mean, come on, man, I got nothin to talk ABOUT
What happened to peace and "love?"
Guess, I wrap the world up in the manner I can play piano and know music and stuffs. It's all laid out like the keyboard, even. Don't mean to literally go too far with or about anyone, but I'm in danger with myself.
What happened to peace and "love?"
Guess, I wrap the world up in the manner I can play piano and know music and stuffs. It's all laid out like the keyboard, even. Don't mean to literally go too far with or about anyone, but I'm in danger with myself.
And Why It Doesn't Work Out
Everything is being taken away because of how much of a fetish kids and their parents etc. have for Tim Burton.
Essentially, meaning taking every joy and intelligence from the world for the cause of Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter and Johnny Depp and so on and so forth. That's just the reasoning behind it, what I wrote in my last post..means something, too.
I'm being ripped off as shit. Everything is for Tim Burton. I am not even cozy in my little hole where no one goes. Now, that's GAY, not saying who I'm thinking of. Or what. I'm thinking of being kicked outta colleges.
I did realize finally I needed to stop and rest.
Essentially, meaning taking every joy and intelligence from the world for the cause of Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter and Johnny Depp and so on and so forth. That's just the reasoning behind it, what I wrote in my last post..means something, too.
I'm being ripped off as shit. Everything is for Tim Burton. I am not even cozy in my little hole where no one goes. Now, that's GAY, not saying who I'm thinking of. Or what. I'm thinking of being kicked outta colleges.
I did realize finally I needed to stop and rest.
Issues
Helena Bonham Carter has made controversial statements. 1 of them is that she thinks because she is almost 1/2 Jewish that she is more European than Europeans themselves. She believes they are Chinese. Anyway, in this way, she is supressing the European in people who want to be considered a normal, European person or at least not an enigma or something or nonentity racially. This seems to include the interests of Europeans themselves. People all look up to Tim Burton but admit they are not Tim Burton. They all love Johnny Depp and wish they to be the figure children look up to like him. However, there is a great distance and respect people paid Tim Burton. Helena Bonham Carter with the lust people pending have over Tim Burton pretty much says way out loud that because she is not Chinese that she is "the one" and "claims him for herself." The point is Helena Bonham Carter as a Jew often annoyingly catcalls her belief to the world that Tim Burton "did something" that she considers as good as shit to her. This implies that she thinks everyone else should be menial to them because normally if someone "won a place in [Tim Burton's] heart" that the rest of the world would sorta give them a nod. She knows she ruins their lives, and so they aren't responsive and she just has to accept it. What can this mean for the cherry on top of the ice cream cone for Nell Burton? Getting into that, with her, BAH I can't think. I usually think of her. Ah, yes, she was very mean to "get it out" that everything my generation should get, while having gone to Johnny Depp, should go to her daughter and that her daughter is tha thing and that people my age don't deserve squat. Even people like me can't go about her life as before. It's same as Ginny. Everything is @ Tim Burton and his family. It should stop, seems it already has, in fact, don't mean to start a joke. I just am not considered as needed nor revealed as being a guarantee to be like Zeus the god of all thunder. I just feel disposed, whereas for no reason Tim Burton reigns.
I see this is some good writing, and the topic is important and a joke but something that seems to prevail, like it or not.
I see this is some good writing, and the topic is important and a joke but something that seems to prevail, like it or not.
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