Is Ellen having a tantrum, thinking she'll stop the tingly feelings by making people feel them more? I'd like to remind you about before in the "experiment" that no one would ever do those things, save for online *** or messing around, the 1 thing. I do stand by, but I still would like to comment. I don't have a real issue, but I mean, there are some things done just in spite I was thinking.. just as a punishment. I don't think it's something I can do, otherwise maybe Ellen does it, too. It feels more like "buckering someone up." Not me. I find it rather rude and crass. I posted something on my blog, something short, comlpaining about it. Then, I started to notice it more, like "Ellen can't hold it" feeling. I will not live like this, something stupid like that.
O, I remember my dream, was influenced by some of the insults I got. For some reason there was a traintrack by my house and they just grew. Someone was with me, like my mom but this person wasn't her, and we were sampling some food.. I had a thin crisp sugary cup filled with sugary fluff, and it was good.
Just wondering, I don't want anyone to make fun of me like I'm imperfect. That just seems rather crass, as well.
Also, I don't get why people keep acting like an old friend who doesn't wanna talk to me, like if you have anything to say you're a party pooper. Why'd I even have to say this again now..
It seems Ginny does go crazy if you do something that doesn't seem aligned in "the way.."
I keep getting the idea Ellen is spilling these things. I found a way to stop complaining @ her. She thinks she didn't really do anything. I just know that she doesn't completely like what she does. I think you're gonna make fun of me, like she's supposed to direct her attention to weird people who don't have anything to say, just there for stupid***.
Also, Ellen, don't get mad at me and say that must be something I do like my mom cuz it's not.. I'm not gonna grumble like my dad.. I don't know what you are. Wait, why did I say Ellen?
Well, I look up to Ginny, I'm not gonna reduce her "achievement" to being a *** object as opposed to not at all. She can experience appropriate feelings. I feel that what it was was things I don't make myself do, not that that matters.
Why would Ellen be mean to me all the time, like she has a bug? Yes, I believe the people in the New Orleans suburbs can be mean, illogical, stuck up. Even more is the people from New Orleans itself. They are underhandedly stuck up and in a daze.
Ellen isn't really all that, has to "be the 1" to make up some insult to the world. I just got the idea she hurt my mom because I want to be cool. Ginny was looking at me, too, BAH. What is your problem? Shut up. You don't explain shit in your thoughts. Stop throwing yourself in my face. Stop jabbering nothing at all. Also, it's because of something that doesn't matter. Watcha doin' to my mom, Ellen? You can't hold your wee wee, or what Ginny, even worse, 2 problems because of dumb Tim Burton. HEY STOP. You're gonna pay. What was that? So, you're just not there for me?
You know that picture of Ellen as a baby, such an attractive person from her Jew blood. I was thinking she said she was like pretty much laid down before you, like the gesture that is nice except it's like you're living your life and she comes in and has to be able to topple it, like she's getting into you.. I wasn't attractive FROM HAVING Chinese blood but just because I'm a normal person..
I just want to say that I never saw people put people in tingly feelings as a punishment on display. That is highly insulting. It was done with bad feelings.. because of jealousy, wanting, and incompetence. I just feel it "is" the relationship just to be mean to me because I said what others did to me was mean. I told Ginny that about unfriending me. So, what, that's also your excuse of giving her ***? That's very crass and improper. It's the kind of thing that doesn't happen for no reason..
O no, mad at Ellen again. Always at Ginny, too. What is the giving her feelings like she's a tween or something in junior high? Just to punish me! What, is that what leaks out.. I know no one approves of it. I'm not actually mad but the fact it seems to be done with an attitude of pleasure to me. I don't know if she needs that, but I don't. Maybe, I'm just better than her, or possibly that's really "what" she does because she might have the most unaccounted for last name. I think she regrets ever doing anything for anyone because she met me.
See, you're just spoiling her for fun and to mess around inappropriately with me.
Ellen, I don't care about mean people my age. I heard another sound that sounds like 1 of you. It made my face not feel as soft.. I think it was just in my ears. Can you GET OUTTA THE WAY. Ginny is a weirdo, wants to get me at home when I have to practice to "punish" me for chosing a voice that's like sorta hardy like a boy, like a soft whistle, like a low flute. In my dream, I even had a large long thing like a bassoon.