Saturday, July 20, 2013
Rats!
Why am I getting this pattern of messages? No one will leave me alone. I'm afraid it may be a trick to affect me and then something else will improve.
Friday, July 19, 2013
My Day
I was too tired in the bus to journal, tried to listen to stuff w/o headphones. I slept on a chair in the mall for like an hour and then on the floor they tolld me to get up when they were done cleaning, 1st in line.. then in the theater .. woke up when it was time but went out and got a very large Strawberry Lemonade Icee as part of a combo for the same price insteada soda.. and nachos, 2 extra things of cheese in the end. I had to count out $7 of coins. No more cash.
My favorite thing about “Heads Up!” is that it films you while you play. This is me, brilliantly giving clues to Lauren Graham.
link
Cool
Wow, that girl really likes Ellen. I don't think she'd mind that I was Chinese, though.. just I mean nothing really sparked me with her, like maybe I get along with people from places like L.A., New Orleans, Florida, Atlanta.
link
Cool
Wow, that girl really likes Ellen. I don't think she'd mind that I was Chinese, though.. just I mean nothing really sparked me with her, like maybe I get along with people from places like L.A., New Orleans, Florida, Atlanta.
Getting Ready to Go Out on a Bus
So, Tim Burton won't admit he's not for the new "Alice in Wonderland?"
What about the 1st 1? "You can learn a lot of things from the flowers, for especially in the month of June, there's a welcome happiness of flowers, all in a golden afternoon."
What about the 1st 1? "You can learn a lot of things from the flowers, for especially in the month of June, there's a welcome happiness of flowers, all in a golden afternoon."
Mad
My mom is playing around like she understands modern life.. I like what she does, though.
Like, she thinks someone who's nice to me is uncool. Why all the hate for but feeling okay around my dad, like I feel okay when I'm with her and excited with my dad
Like, she thinks someone who's nice to me is uncool. Why all the hate for but feeling okay around my dad, like I feel okay when I'm with her and excited with my dad
Mad
I was gonna get ready to go..now I don't feel so happy. My brother wouldn't stop annoying me and thinks he's got something on me. Go dizzy yourself.
Annoyed
So, who got my brother to tell me what Ellen DeGeneres and Ginny says. Get that mutt outta my life. (Not literally..)
He was in his room when I got out. I just don't like seeing him. He is indeed not me and the opposite and more different racially than others. Watch the next sibling turn into a murderer.
He said that Ginny says like Ellen even if I'm right they do a thing where they don't care and are still mean because of the n word thing, like I would ever mean anything bad. You all are dumb. No one cares if you ***.
He was in his room when I got out. I just don't like seeing him. He is indeed not me and the opposite and more different racially than others. Watch the next sibling turn into a murderer.
He said that Ginny says like Ellen even if I'm right they do a thing where they don't care and are still mean because of the n word thing, like I would ever mean anything bad. You all are dumb. No one cares if you ***.
What's yo' problem?
Maybe, I'll get your kid kicked out.. what a lie, you cannot even prove something if I did it, and I told the counselor something and he didn't react in any way, in a way.
May as well ***
It seems obvious Orlando won't take this Ginny shit, that she kicked me outta seeing her site online. That's like banning an IP address and very selfish but to her just some fact. All I can say is maybe she's really offing Facebook. I don't really agree with that for anyone unless maybe you're really old. Hm.
Problema
No one gives a shit about me seeing the disciplinarian. Ginny, I told you you were stupid. Then again, you just want a bumpy ride, why not the same exact hurt? The hurt that would do to you. Aw, don't get mad. It is stupid to send me to see someone.
Problema
I had mentioned I talked to a cool guy before @ problems with Ginny. He was nice and let me tell he thought the problem was just the rowdy boys outsdie. Orlando is gay. I'm serious. Always rubbing in their shit.
Mad
Why should I even talk to my parents. They'll just keep testing the other side. I'm sure I'm independent and well-liked, saw my parents for who they were, didn't hurt my brother. I know they'd even be testy to me to be quiet and still while he was born.. Well, I said something and then left. Then, it was all about whiny brother.
Shallow
What if my brother from my dad's side decided to stop getting deep into things, just needing to be able to survive like a person, have an education. I don't really think other people are all that attractive. I see the world as it is! WTF doesn't seem to get reality with me.
What do you think about people passing through
New Orleans?
I like the earlier generations, like not just the 30s and 40s but the 00s.
I like the earlier generations, like not just the 30s and 40s but the 00s.
Really Upset
So, people born in 1958 or whatever also do side with kids with extra OLD parents.. I don't want a bumpy ride getting in trouble with Ginny and like not being able to participate in Facebook with others.
Flo rda
Here's a fun 1. Someone .. an actress named Peyton List born April 1998 .. is from somewhere out there in Florida .. is it by Gainesville|Tampa .. moved to New York .. where .. at age 4. I have relatives there. I see her picture, and she looks like she wants to throw up. Guess she's in L.A.. You know, I don't feel bad since moving to the New Orleans area. However, Ellen DeGeneres is from there. I just moved back to Orlando.
Stop
My dad is not an emotional person. He's just some other person. I've always tried to in a way get him to "talk." It seems my mom thinks America is just a joke.
Just Woke Up
I remember my dream, again, I was back in the choir loft of Slidell.. Before, some people were going home on spacecrafts. So, my teacher put her hand on the top link of my arm, I was next to Charlotte Church and my friend.
Then, I remember like not being able to do anything else.. like I was being carried into the church pews, the priest going around giving people turns to do things, almost got to me but still immobile. Some noises ended up making me get up..
I guess it was interesting, if you think of "what happened" as a tool.. a tool to make a dream. I was sprawling on my bed and got up but mayb e want to lik down atgain. xp The church thing seemed like a party.
I guess I should try to make a slush today, even if I just put water in it? I had these 2 little chicken pot pies and a lean cuisine of Sesame chicken and noodles. I can cook the tohe
Then, I remember like not being able to do anything else.. like I was being carried into the church pews, the priest going around giving people turns to do things, almost got to me but still immobile. Some noises ended up making me get up..
I guess it was interesting, if you think of "what happened" as a tool.. a tool to make a dream. I was sprawling on my bed and got up but mayb e want to lik down atgain. xp The church thing seemed like a party.
I guess I should try to make a slush today, even if I just put water in it? I had these 2 little chicken pot pies and a lean cuisine of Sesame chicken and noodles. I can cook the tohe
SHUT UP
My brother is being mean, turned on the light showing the food when he came out for more shit I would not acknowledge him as like me, no one will stop. Wow, Ellen, you think I was shit to you. You are the 1 who is mean because of the N word thing, you even admit it.
Wow, and you do it on TV.
Wow, and you do it on TV.
STOP
STOP MAKING FUN OF ME FOR HAVING ATTRACTIVE PARENTS I FEEL PEOPLE WANNA **** ME, LIKE UGLY RETARDED ASIANS
Problema
I have a feeling Ellen just talks back because she's mad she's not from Florida, the only place more dreamy than New Orleans, what a dawg.
MAD
I will not sit here for the shit of Nell Burton literally answering to something @ a dad "just" from Pennsylvania..whatever the Hell that means..and then assimilating me with the uglier Chinese by default because my dad's not a social guy like a partier.
THIS IS NOT A JOKE
I do not feel too old to be Tinkerbell..in the Disney parade. What, Snow White looks too old? She looks older than me..
Foood
I got 2 Lean Cuisine, Sweet & Sour Chicken with Noodles I think, then with rice Sesame Chicken, which is Chinese food I likealot, and 2 chicken pot pies.
O MAH GOD
What if I like something in a good way but honestly try to better myself into an ideal? You're just worried @ me being Chinese and people hurting me.
Old Florida
You know, old-fashe uned Florida was much more modern than it is today and same with New Orleans xp
So
I just deserved to get really mad and it's loading to YouTube. I started thinking after my YouTube for Ellen DeGeneres.. and then blew up even more
Do you think it's ***y to tell someone not to be what is accepted as good just because you gave them attention and they didn't do *** for anyone and they're younger
I will not deal with an animalistic vision of Ellen barking like people I've known to a degree.. of how she's not from Florida a modern culture and is chancing "it in" L.A.? Do you really do that? She will not even answer. What did I do to you? I am so sor ry if you are JEALOUS
Do you think it's ***y to tell someone not to be what is accepted as good just because you gave them attention and they didn't do *** for anyone and they're younger
I will not deal with an animalistic vision of Ellen barking like people I've known to a degree.. of how she's not from Florida a modern culture and is chancing "it in" L.A.? Do you really do that? She will not even answer. What did I do to you? I am so sor ry if you are JEALOUS
Daint y
There are people gay enough to fart around and say I can't be Muslim because they make fun of me for being a dainty Chinese..
A Good Day @ McD's
There was a girl with long white hair, kinda small boned, talked to her for like 2 minutes @ smoothies and slushes, she got 2 shakes, probably like mostly vanilla.. a kind of German boy stood guard watching us talk. She responded, right away. Sometimes, I acted like I was talking to him. A guy who worked there was trying to say what smoothies they had, but I never found them.
So
I started saying hi to everyone. Also, there's a guy who knows me I saw in his car. He's a nice guy with a very long, rectangle head.. You know something funny was I thought what now Ginny is Tinkerbell? My therapist, who's a hefty person with a little Italian from Miami with a shade of blonde hair, like light brown, said she likes Tinkerbell, she made her kid that for Halloween.. and even brought in cups and did something to the light switch.
Problema
Stop acting like you're better after I made some huge point. I will not be the servent to you being all thick and happy like a 1960 person, no matter how old my dad is or isn't. Does it look like I do that? You know, there's something about liking more than 1 thing. I do what I do.
What was I gonna say?
What was I gonna say?
The Address Book
It is a spotted cat cover, light brown. I do like white and gray better.. I still got it, didn't I??
I passed around a Valencia notebook before, the teacher didn't tell me not to, like during class. She even was mad when I stayed after class to pass it around. It's like we were there because she is a rare feeling person. If you accepted me racially, I would be, too. My dad? I dunno, I think he's stuck in a mud hole. Ellen, I don't care if I said that, you are not.. being nice to say I have to explain it. It's already self-explanatory. It's funny. He knows it. It gives me a rise. We don't need to say no I don't hate so and so.
Ever seen a cute, short girl, like my friend with white hair.. well, I wasn't big big. Think it's healthy to tell me I'm bad because my pretty hair is dark? Sometimes, it's the thing you don't want for some.
I passed around a Valencia notebook before, the teacher didn't tell me not to, like during class. She even was mad when I stayed after class to pass it around. It's like we were there because she is a rare feeling person. If you accepted me racially, I would be, too. My dad? I dunno, I think he's stuck in a mud hole. Ellen, I don't care if I said that, you are not.. being nice to say I have to explain it. It's already self-explanatory. It's funny. He knows it. It gives me a rise. We don't need to say no I don't hate so and so.
Ever seen a cute, short girl, like my friend with white hair.. well, I wasn't big big. Think it's healthy to tell me I'm bad because my pretty hair is dark? Sometimes, it's the thing you don't want for some.
Problema
I'm sure that you are supposed to like get what you need. Some people believe the opposite in these things, but you can't just blast out on me and use this as a cover, all the time, and say we have no relationship, like I wanted to hurt you in my need. I won't take a life of bullshit that stimulates you to get white skin.
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Another Hurt
You already all act like I'm better, and then Tim Burton comes and you say I was selfish.
I like older people, stop GODDAMN MAKING FUN OF THAT FACT OF LIFE. I don't act weird around them or don't like to. You think that this world is just for you. Well, you're gonna get people you're mean to to fight back. My race was disgraced before yours ever was.
I like older people, stop GODDAMN MAKING FUN OF THAT FACT OF LIFE. I don't act weird around them or don't like to. You think that this world is just for you. Well, you're gonna get people you're mean to to fight back. My race was disgraced before yours ever was.
Problema
I heard a noise again and it affected my eyes, like maybe they were nothing. I don't care "what" you did for my brother, I didn't do it, and I'm not gonna be shit in some shit way you connected it. I know something happened to them, though. Please don't tell me my eyes aren't good enough for you, just making up mean things because you're against the world in some level. Why do you think that's okay with someone like me? You go do that to yo mama? Who's shitting this? What'd you do to my eyes, stop bothering ME! You care that I'm not God and that my eyes are never affected by anything and I'm not alive and changing? You go live in a barn!
Well, the rest of my face just flushed, so I've got something going.. Oh no, there's another constant noise. Wonder what that might be. Ha. I got some people on the street to say they were younger than their parents, and they're not gay. You don't seem to got shit for them. Or, I know that the shit thought their parents aren't born in 1957, 8, 9, .. will pass through your mind each time.
Well, the rest of my face just flushed, so I've got something going.. Oh no, there's another constant noise. Wonder what that might be. Ha. I got some people on the street to say they were younger than their parents, and they're not gay. You don't seem to got shit for them. Or, I know that the shit thought their parents aren't born in 1957, 8, 9, .. will pass through your mind each time.
I know what you did.
You said I was my relatives, all those brat kids, I can sit here and count'em all. Found 1 older I only e-mailed with. Oh yes, and an in-law who never talks to me but talks to the "pretty" relative aunt.
Problema
Hey, stop giving me special rules, like someone else is better than me all the time. They don't think that when I'm up alone. I see other people of non-Caucasian races do what they decide.
I hate this place.
I wanna live here. The problem is the poor people acting like they're whiter, the blacks, and you know all mean complaining about their job to be a strict good girl. All the time, everyone. I know some of us want out, but I know you come here and you do weird things. I just don't see how it's done.
Another Annoying Thing
I got the feeling Ginny turned off to other people, and I got the idea that I did it and before that Ginny shouldn't exist because for me I should never meet anymore attractive people like me.
@ CVS
I saw this nail polish that was in a tube and it was like purple, but even when I took it out I could see it like glowing in the dark but it was light. So, it was like purple and blue or something.
Speaking of seeing colors, why do people act like I'm moody? I just wasn't comfortable as a kid. I wanted to be a proper European girl not put down for having dark|black hair, in a proper dress, doing proper things a lady does except when I'm at gymnastics, plus not to be mean to in ballet. Also, what about a lazy cook for a mom who doesn't need to eat much and a supposedly poorer dad.
Speaking of seeing colors, why do people act like I'm moody? I just wasn't comfortable as a kid. I wanted to be a proper European girl not put down for having dark|black hair, in a proper dress, doing proper things a lady does except when I'm at gymnastics, plus not to be mean to in ballet. Also, what about a lazy cook for a mom who doesn't need to eat much and a supposedly poorer dad.
Not Mean to Me
So, someone who admires men born around 1950 or maybe 1945 even will always be nice to kids like me.
Verdict
You old people should not make people born 1957-1961 more special because it's just more special than kids with older parents who are human like anyone, like Americans are European. They always say, "No"
Stupid Being Forward
Yes, I think about being younger than older people, and as a kid said I was tired of being the oldest because it seemed to mean I was flawed and I didn't like my family only
Problema
Everyone has always said I was a good person. Why is my dad and mom acting like I did something just for the fun of it? Why can't I live in this house in peace!
Question
I don't know what this means, but is my dad even comfortable around people who are a different age
So
If you embarrass a student, you should be sorry you did it.
Also, I think my dad doesn't like me because he's born in 1950. He "likes" kids born before or with older parents than him to a degree.
Flawed Adult Figures
I didn't do anything wrong, like with Ginny stupidly kicking me off Facebook. It might be because she's from California, not sure if maybe the Pennsylvania and maybe other blood made her that way. People from California, sometimes Florida, are mean, like Johnny Depp .. Tim Burton! I respect them for their morals but not for their grumpiness. I say it because other people do.
Also, I think my dad doesn't like me because he's born in 1950. He "likes" kids born before or with older parents than him to a degree.
Flawed Adult Figures
I didn't do anything wrong, like with Ginny stupidly kicking me off Facebook. It might be because she's from California, not sure if maybe the Pennsylvania and maybe other blood made her that way. People from California, sometimes Florida, are mean, like Johnny Depp .. Tim Burton! I respect them for their morals but not for their grumpiness. I say it because other people do.
Do you wanna get my secret?
I'm gonna invite people to a party.. if I get famous I can fly them over to it, guess for Saturday night and Sunday morning.. 1st, I need people other than Barb and Joni..
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I did get more money for movies, just have to buy the ticket 1st, maybe no dessert, and what about a snack.. don't know if I care for what they have that's affordable.
^Who cares^
You know, no one cares @ Johnny Depp, feeling attacked by kids thinking he's cool in a strict way, basically.. let's see what happens to his "real" manners. I must admit yes some people know my brother has long hair because of him, like a bit below his shoulders. He didn't used to part it in the middle. I don't know what he is, but he is less like me than most people. I try to be happy and white, and he thinks he's gonna win in another way for some reason. I think my dad thinks I should say "what" I like so he can provide what I want to others and leave me a "bargain."
I'm still disturbed why my parents were being weird, no movie money.. just because I slept through Disney auditions. It's quite taxing, but I see I was really "there" for the kids and maybe why they kept throwing food at me.
I'm still disturbed why my parents were being weird, no movie money.. just because I slept through Disney auditions. It's quite taxing, but I see I was really "there" for the kids and maybe why they kept throwing food at me.
Something Funny
My parents wondered why I spent their money.. I got a magazine and my arm sweated on it.. I got a little address book, but it was $6. It's very good. I just asked why my dad didn't give me movie money. My mom tells me not to ask him for money. Most parents do their kids's chores and pay for their stuff. That's what I found out in New Orleans. You know, serve them their meals.. and not act like you should waste your time on nothing..
I just said wait Dad pays for my movie money.. and my mom is like no I give him the money.. which I don't think she does. I didn't just demand it. I would have had to appropriate my money.
All I got was 2 large slushes @ McD's for $2 something each. I used their money to get a slushie at a gas station which hurt my stomach awhile walking and I had to use the bathroom. I told you what else I got. I also got 2 $1 nail polishes. Not something you need to talk @ right on, but it's like a purplish feel, dark red and an a bit glittery like dark hot pink. I was inspired by my deep voice.
I just said wait Dad pays for my movie money.. and my mom is like no I give him the money.. which I don't think she does. I didn't just demand it. I would have had to appropriate my money.
All I got was 2 large slushes @ McD's for $2 something each. I used their money to get a slushie at a gas station which hurt my stomach awhile walking and I had to use the bathroom. I told you what else I got. I also got 2 $1 nail polishes. Not something you need to talk @ right on, but it's like a purplish feel, dark red and an a bit glittery like dark hot pink. I was inspired by my deep voice.
Muddled
So, I liked growing up in a real place like New Orleans..not sure how that hits. I am from a modern, normal place. But it's so special. I'm not scared of anything in life. I am concerned.
What People Do and Don't Do
Did you know Generation XY always checks to see what they're really doing insteada no Mommy I'm special, I'm younger, I don't have to be respectful about generations .. and then no on mentions that tiny, eentsy weensy detail. They are so flippant, anyone care to handle that, really?
Still, does it hurt when someone gets attention..no..just if you don't get a part in a play. Age of parents? I dunno, I've seen it both ways. I think the goal would be to have a young mom and a dad that's not too old. Otherwise, I'm sorry, but I think people born after 1961 are crappy and even just after 1960.
Still, does it hurt when someone gets attention..no..just if you don't get a part in a play. Age of parents? I dunno, I've seen it both ways. I think the goal would be to have a young mom and a dad that's not too old. Otherwise, I'm sorry, but I think people born after 1961 are crappy and even just after 1960.
So
Why does everyone tell me they got tested more in life than me and that I'm just crap to think I'm something, as well?
To Clarify
I was supposed to be peppy at an audition today at Disney World. Instead.. I slept 7 hours 2 days in a row then missed 1 day, slept 20 hours today, feel pretty good, wanna walk to eat. I'm not auditioning to be a dancer but a waver|dancer in the parade, Tinkerbell, if not then an Alice, who all do different things. Snow White trots with the dwarves. I wouldn't mind that too much. I'd make a good role of it.
Passing
Sorry @ Talia. I looked at her Twitter the day she passed away. I had just woken up. They called Ellen and she's been online only making posts on Twitter about her. She is sad, and I am scared because I live here and I feel that I'm not really even good enough for Talia, in a way, socially.
I am very sorry about this. I wish I could have met her. I would be willing to play with her, but I don't think I'm well-liked, and we could try to prolong her life. I am so sorry she passed away, she was just a little girl.
If you don't know, she is a girl who I believe has a Spanish dad or maybe Mongoloid? and she was small and thin and had cancer. She was very smiley all the time, something I would not appear to be, maybe. She was such a good girl, I cannot believe the horror of what happens in this world. Just a few days ago, I said we need to concentrate on traffic deaths.
I am so sorry for Talia, and I hope her soul is pure and happy in Heaven while she awaits the coming of the Lord and everyone on that day we all enter into Heaven, or Purgatory. I don't know about Purgatory. I think she is in the middle of Heaven and a transient state while she waits for the other people in the world to ascend. Some people might not like people and still be Saints for their pains and pray in Heaven with the Lord all the time..
God bless the spirit arisen to Heaven of Talia! My sympathy and whatever else is appropriate. I am so sad for her death. Being an Orlando citizen, I know that people are very rude, actually, but in a way they are very giving socially, everything here is a smile, any wish you make with your heart.
God bless Talia in Heaven.
I guess I will end this post here, hope I didn't confuse anyone with my religious beliefs or wishes.
I am very sorry about this. I wish I could have met her. I would be willing to play with her, but I don't think I'm well-liked, and we could try to prolong her life. I am so sorry she passed away, she was just a little girl.
If you don't know, she is a girl who I believe has a Spanish dad or maybe Mongoloid? and she was small and thin and had cancer. She was very smiley all the time, something I would not appear to be, maybe. She was such a good girl, I cannot believe the horror of what happens in this world. Just a few days ago, I said we need to concentrate on traffic deaths.
I am so sorry for Talia, and I hope her soul is pure and happy in Heaven while she awaits the coming of the Lord and everyone on that day we all enter into Heaven, or Purgatory. I don't know about Purgatory. I think she is in the middle of Heaven and a transient state while she waits for the other people in the world to ascend. Some people might not like people and still be Saints for their pains and pray in Heaven with the Lord all the time..
God bless the spirit arisen to Heaven of Talia! My sympathy and whatever else is appropriate. I am so sad for her death. Being an Orlando citizen, I know that people are very rude, actually, but in a way they are very giving socially, everything here is a smile, any wish you make with your heart.
God bless Talia in Heaven.
I guess I will end this post here, hope I didn't confuse anyone with my religious beliefs or wishes.
So, would you say..
..Ginny is there, for you? I can't take singing right now because of her acclimating to her new schedule. I asked if it'd be until the summer. Also, she teaches privately, wait that's what I wait for. She teaches things at 1 time, as well. She said she can't add new students right now.. Where else.. also teaches voiceover at an acting school. She was pretty contained or self-happy about dialects, like I'd have to go to her classes, but that's when Disney auditions always are, and that's my #1.
Making up for Things
I don't really enjoy it. Like, Pennsylvania might be cozier, but you know I don't really believe that to be very true. All I can say is it might be more European, the old shops, the new shops, the way it seems like the old world, like you have a blessed, clean life.
How It Goes
As far as only being close to people around Pennsylvania, supposedly it's safe enough but not like New York + New Jersey..
Dream
I had a pretty long dream I was out camping and in the end kept whining to my mom and sometimes dad who looked younger and more thin worn like my brother.. like this girl from Orlando at Lakeside, "I wanna go home.." It was complicated, always worrying @ some animal that might hurt me, etc.
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